Reality

The next day Claire woke up and saw a picture of Ricky with his girl. It was his birthday and the girl had dedicated him a photo of them due to the day. It was not the first time she had seen a picture of the couple but as they had been closer the last days, she felt weird. She just could not describe if it was jealousy or envy. Maybe both. But the feeling that hurt her the most was the frustration caused by the reality that hit her right in the head. Fantasizing was great and the guy was a dream, but being brought from the sky to the floor was terrible. It hurt so badly. She would never have Ricky and, as the well known writer he was, his followers already cheered for the couple and kinda liked the girl. Claire felt so small. They haven't talked since Wednesday, one day before his birthday. And on that very day - Wednesday - they had more intimate moments, even being far away, through the phone. Claire showed herself to him in a way which until that day she hadn't. She felt embarrassed because the whole situation was just too much. Being close to a guy like Ricky, having a husband herself, everything was too much to deal with. Now the knot in her throat when she saw that photo...and also his comment right below it saying "love". How could he say "love" and at the same tiime talk to her? Was he lying? was he only saying that because he had to? What did he really want? As an impulse she deleted his phone number, but a few hours later she regretted and saved it back. Weak. So fucking weak. He did not text her again. It's been three days.

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